I am new to this, and I do not understand it.
A month ago, I went running with my husband. (My dream come true, to run together.) I planned to run the Merrill Down and Dirty Chicago race with him, but now, after hurting my back, I can barely walk across the street to school to work. It hurts, hurts to stand and walk, and I wonder how do people live with chronic pain??
I do not understand it, pain, but I think I see how it can open doors to secrets in God’s heart.
I hear His whisper, through my husband singing His songs to me in the middle of the night when it hurts, “Jesus loves you” and “Victory in Jesus.”
He whispers when I worship Him, that he hears my prayers no matter what. When I am weary, when I am frustrated . . .
He whispers through the many people who stop and pray with me when they see me in pain—Beth, Hector, Christi, Gail, Priscilla, Lori, and so many others.
He whispers through my coworkers who cover for me in my absence and say “Rest, feel better!”
He whispers to me through get well cards from all my after school kids, with comments like “What happened? -Sam” and “Hapo yo feell bebr….icecreem -from Ellis.”
He whispers to me through His word—”Lord, to whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life.” John 6:68
And through other like Charles Stanley, “Whichever of your dreams seem to have died, don’t walk away from your Savior. Jesus desires to show you His glory in the most difficult issues you face.”
There is something here in pain, and I still don’t get it, can’t quite grasp it, but I hang onto these whispers. I still wish I wasn’t here, but I can see the secrets I would not have understood or seen, of love in pain and victory. Pain is not the end. God brings Victory someday!